5:20 PM and I was sitting in front of my laptop, bumming.
A minute later, I suddenly realised: I'm an attractive, fairly intelligent young lady. I have talents, skills, accomplishments. I'm well-read. I have quirky interests. I know I'm a good person. I don't tear other people (women, especially) down to feel better about myself. I'm not mean spirited either.
There's absolutely nothing for me to be sad about.
Then I felt like crying because I just summed up the the struggle I've had with myself and my self esteem for almost 21 years of my life and that it was so easy to put this new perspective into words but so much harder to actually believe and slot into place.
This is likely to be temporary but I will remember how this feels.
Love you, gorgeous. Remember that.
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